A Concise Confession

In an email, one of my high school teachers once wrote: "conciseness is a virtue, one that Kera Package do not possess".  It was a true statement then, and it is a true statement now. To be concise is to be "free from all elaboration and superfluous detail". If I had a dollar for every time I started a sentence, "please allow to elaborate"... let's just say my support would be raised.

Today, one of my friends from college asked me when I would be back in DC. My response: "August 4th, assuming that I raise my Chi Alpha budget and can start my internship". The correct response would have been "August 4th", but I felt the need to elaborate. All too often, I elaborate and provide unnecessary explanation when I am not feeling secure enough to make a concise declaration of what I believe to be true. 

As my support raising contact list dwindles, my deadline nears, and my prayer life increases... I must confess that I find myself elaborating with conditional statements like "August 4th, assuming..."

Assuming what? That God provides? He will. His provision and timing are perfect. My resources may appear to be limited, but He has more than enough partners and financial resources to meet my deadline. My elaboration habit reveals that I am still doubting that God will come through. This is my confession. As the father of a sick boy prayed as he awaited a miracle, my prayer while I await my tiny support raising miracles is: "Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief!" 

"Jesus said, "If? There are no 'ifs' among believers. Anything can happen." No sooner were the words out of his mouth than the father cried, "Then I believe. Help me with my doubts!"- Mark 9:23-24, The Message

Lord, I believe you will provide every partner, every resource, every dollar, and every ounce of wisdom that I need to begin this internship. I believe that You will be glorified in this support raising process and throughout my year at AU. I know that You will come through in greater ways than I can even imagine. Lord, I believe, but please help my unbelief.

If you are reading this, would you please believe with me? I can't wait to see what these next two weeks hold... and I am really glad that God has given me some awesome companions for the wild ride ahead. Thanks again friends! =]